New Years Resolution (2010)

Well, I personally do not do this annually. The last time I made one (as far as I can remember) was... let me think, I guess, I was still in grade school. Maybe, I was pressured by my teachers back then to make one. Why? because I personally don't see the importance of this.

Now that I'm a lot more "mature", I guess, I have to give this a chance. In the first place, I won't lose anything.

Here's my new years resolution for 2010.

1. Focus more on my studies.

- as a side bar, i'd spend more time in the library :(

2. Continuously accept the fact that life is unfair.

3. Dwell more on the happy events in life than succumbing myself in misery.

4. Talk only to people who make sense.

5. Lower my personal criteria/standards of who I must/ should be.

6. When stressed/ angry, I must count one to ten before saying anything.

7. I have to be more patient.

8. Accept that my family would never be perfect/ ideal.

9. Appreciate the small things in life.

10. Decrease the number of cigarette sticks I consume per day.

11. I must learn the art of thinking that the world does not revolve around me.

12. Practice fidelity.

13. Continue to lie but lessen it's frequency.

14. must eat healthy foods.

15. Be more closer to God.

- well, this should be first but humans err, i honestly just thought of it. Well anyway, He knows my relationship with Him so, no problems here.

Maybe one day, I'd inevitably forget about what i just wrote. But again, just to make my life more "interesting" and "juicier" for now, I made this. Who knows, one day, i'd be the person i'd like myself to be.

Farewell 2009! Welcome 2010!

Doctors Licensed to Kill

Being a clinician is one of my biggest dreams in life. Since I was a child, I have been dreaming of becoming a clinician. Now that I'm enrolled in medical school, I now have the feeling that my out of the blue dream is slowly materializing.

Since I entered med school, I've been bombarded with not only the biggest deals of memorizing illnesses and their treatments but more of the pressure of the standards provided by myself and by the society. In med school, everyone's expected to be intelligent, a person who has the capability of reasoning. Also, if you enter med school, you'd totally be considering that you're a nerd. You'd be losing many of your friends. Why? because you'd be spending much more time being with your books than being with your friends. You see, many of the clinicians I know lost many of their friends that they've been with when they were still in pre med (college course). That isn't unusual as what one of my profs would say.

When you enroll yourself in med school, one of the first questions you would be able to read in an application form is your financial capability of paying its fees. Weird as it may sound, but yes, it has been written a long time ago that being a med student has the prerequisite of you being part of the elite society. So few are scholars and many of these scholars or grantees of scholarships are also rich. Well, we can't do something about this. It has been given and I think, this would pursue until we die.

The bright side in being a medical student is when you now learn so much that you are capable of diagnosing and curing illnesses. Once you become a doctor, you would then have the license to kill. Bad as it may sound, in reality, doctors are the only people who can control a person's life legally. If he wants you dead, he'll kill you. He has the power to end your life without you knowing. The beauty in that is it keeps the doctors on their toes in being careful and being ethical in treating their patients. In addition, a doctor's ability to influence others is outrageous. People view doctors like gods. Who wouldn't want to be saved by these gods? Lastly, being a doctor gives you the high position of continuously being elite. These reasons are more often selfish in nature. Well, many doctors think this way.

On the flip side of the coin, doctors do have the responsibility to first and foremost love people. They have the duty to make their patients' lives easier. They are the forerunners of lives. They are men who play gods but still, they are men who do err.

Clinicians, physicians, doctors, whatever you call them are part of our society. They are just around. I still do want to be doctor. No single word can describe a doctor especially with the different view points of these doctors. Oh well, to hell with all these. I still want to be a doctor.

Christmas

I've been in different parts of the Philippines and I've never found a place like Baguio especially during the yuletide. It just offers a different feeling. Baguio City has been labeled as the Summer capital of the Philippines due to its cool climate. It houses resorts of hot springs that invigorate one's soul with warmth. During eve, you can see the ranges with sparkling lights just like stars that fell from the heavens or simply Christmas lights. Again, I say that Baguio is the perfect place to spend time with your family during the yuletide season.

I miss Baguio. Whenever my family travels and spends time in Baguio, I would constantly feel bliss, i become excited. I simply don't know what Baguio gives me but what's important is that the place fosters the bonding of our family. Now, I can't even feel the presence of the yuletide season. I don't know what happened. I'm alone. We're not going to spend our Christmas there. The feeling's just unusual.

We don't have gifts under our Christmas tree. Nobody has been planning for the most awaited moment, well as for me, the noche buena. I miss those times when we would be having our own countdown until 12 mn. We would then exchange our gifts with our manitos or manitas. I feel sad that this may not actually happen this year.

Christmas is just for children. I guess, this was what my parents just taught me. Now that I and my siblings are all grown up, we inevitably forget all about the importance of Christmas. I know that gifts are not the gist of Christmas. But now, my family is missing the most important moral of Christmas, being together, loving each other, and just spending time together.

I pray that my kiddy Christmas views won't stop. I pray that Christmas would just be for everyone; not just for children. I miss Christmas, I miss my family.

To all, Merry Christmas and I wish that you guys find the true meaning of the yuletide season.

Primer

There are lots of things that one can read about the Philippines. It's a country that has been bestowed with beautiful people, beautiful land, and beautiful values. Just like many developing countries, the Philippines has been once on top, once it has savored the life of democracy, once it has shared with other countries the best part of the meat. But now, it seems that as if the Filipino people are digging and simply cementing their own graves. My country (yes, i'm a filipino) as i believe, has been battling against this, but with no support from the government, it seems that many of us are now succumbing to hopelessness.

I know that i'm still "young" to worry about the current status of my country; but in one way or another, when i become much older, i would also be affected.Well basically, the youth has no voice in my country. Many youth related organizations are being built but to no avail. Why? It's simply because one cannot move to change the dictatorial system of this so called "democratic" governance even those who are currently in power. Why? because only one person controls our government- Gloria Macapagal- Arroyo (GMA), and hell to HER. I'm dismayed. I want to do something. I envy those youth in other countries where their "little voices" are heard.

Philippine elections is again upcoming. On May 2010, the Filipinos would then again elect a president. Hopefully, the president won't be another carbon copy of GMA or a puppet of that monster. More so, nobody wants a president who has been convicted of plunder and still has the face to run again. Yes, ERAP, that's you. I hope Filipinos would soon realize that we constantly need to learn. That learning may bring hopes into our hearts. Filipinos must escape and be freed from this inhumane dictatorship.

Again, I'm still "young" but i'm now tired of politics. Filipinos, I'm begging, please bring back the hopes of the youth. Don't let us lose hope.